when ur fastest is just not fast enough

u set ur mind..
u trained hard..
u learned..
u pushed..

the time comes.

on ur mark:
u settle yourself on the block..

get set:
u press on the block..

pow!!
u lift..
u lean forward.. head down..
10 small steps.. 10 metres
chest up.. lift.. drive.. 50 metres..
head up.. lift.. lift..
finish line in sight..
push!!
the final dip..

then u hear someone says: its not quick enough..

u look around.. no one look at u in the eyes..
all with either their head down or hands on their faces..
frustration written all over..
u can almost taste their frustration from the air u breath..
then they come to u and said: never mind, u did ur best..

but that does not take away the frustration from their face does it??

it taste everything but great to disappoint the one u love..
really..

cerite pasal kaki kiri..

jangan sesekali kite pndng rendah kaki kiri orang..
walau pun dh 100 kali die miss ngn kaki kiri die..
sbb shot yg ke 101 tkde kene mengene...
rezeki shot tu dh tertulis..

dr kewujudan kaki kiri tu dh kire rezeki..
kenen ke tk..gol ke tk.. apetah lagi kn..

so knp la nk tkot sgt nnk hayun kaki kiri tu..

ak tulis ni bkn la nk ckp kaki kiri aku gempak..
ade gk sepak tk kene kn..

tp aku bersyukur allah izinkn aku hayun..
dn pernah gk la score pki kaki kiri..

bg aku tu tande kesyukurn aku la..
klu gol aku celebrate.. pandang langit sambil bersyukur..
klu tk ak tutup muke.. n still pandang langit..
mintk kekuatan supaye brani cube lagi..

so.. akhir kate.. bak kate ronaldo..
dont just rely on one foot. work on the other..

when u r stretched

its very hard.. when u no longer have a star to depend on
when u suddenly have to be the star..
being a star is easy.. doing what stars do is not..

especially when u see ur predecessor was defeated.. u start to ask urself..
'am i good enough for that?'

u decide to step up.. in other words u choose to battle..
is tiring when u feel like u r the only one who's fighting..
when others just walk around with smiles..
makes u ask urself another question 'am i doing the right thing?'

indeed u r..

just keep pushing!!

just take this as an injury during training..
or a hard foul..

remember.. 'they ' cant handle u!! that's y 'they' foul u.

an absolute prove that u r getting better!!!

to do next:
-celebrate!!
-set new goals
-push hard.. again.. then harder!!

DONT GIVE UP COZ ALLAH AND RASULULLAH HATE QUITER!!

to what y'all call freedom (think again) [for girls]

i read one article that make me write this post..

http://iloveallaah.blogspot.com/2010/01/why-are-women-turning-to-islam.html

there's the like.. read it if u want to..

the freedom i want to talk about is the freedom to wear whatever u like..
i just want to say a few things and i want you girls to think about it..
whenever the question 'why so exposed?' is asked, the most common answer is: its warm.

you girls call it freedom, but think about it..

guys want to see it.. you girls show it.. i woundn't call that freedom..
guys in other sense force all of you to wear like that..

you girls really don't mind if a bunch of guys only talk about your asses??
i think y'all do.. everybody does..

i know.. 'hell! that the guys fault for talking about it. not ours'
that's in ur mind now right?

Allah have engineered his masterpiece(us, human), with a special connection between out eyes n our reproductive organs.. thats y He asked us to guard our visions..

i know that the guys have to do the guarding..
but do us some favour aite??
u girls win.. we guys win...
all of us will have some good deeds to help us at 'mahsyar'

think about it..

an analogy..

let me choose basketball and football for this analogy

basketball:

just imagine.. u came to a new court.. alone.. u have no idea how they play.. they asked u to join them.. u agreed..
the game begins.. u as a point/shooting guard.. felt a bit weird not handling the ball..dont know where to run.. they dont know when to pass.. and so on..but u decided to play shooting guard on that day.. u communicate with the point guard n thing more or less sorted itself..

football:
now imagine.. a new pitch.. totally different style of play..u r a winger.. n they play like chelsea.. how awkward can that be?? but again.. u adjusted.. playing more like a forward.. kind of funny playing football without crossing it..

the common factor for both situation is that u can adjust. why? coz u know the games very well..

now imagine.. the 'adjusting skill is not there'
u constantly out of position.. ur passes r all wrong..
u r not as effective as u know u r capable of..
n feeling u r more of a liability than an asset..
most frustrating is ur team mates threw their hands up in frustration..
unpleasent

here's a catch: u cannot leave the pitch/court/team..
what would u do??

i wish i can be like him (i'm trying)

he is no other than the one and only rasulullah SAW.
he is THE MAN i look up to..
certainly honoured to be named after him..
the time has come for me to live up to the name..
a tall order to say the least..
but working towards it is a must..
he was a great leader
a great Muslim
a great man
a great friend
a great husband
a great father
a great imam.

more than that, he was described by a walking Quran..
Islam runs through his veins and arteries..
he lived it..
and my pledge is to continue that legacy..
i know it is not going to be easy..
but i must try..

i just hope that the world will except my flaws in trying to be him..
i wont stop!!
insyaallah.. (keeping hopes high)

HOPE

"Setiap usaha kita dinilai oleh Allah. Allah tidak menilai hasilnya, tapi Allah melihat setiap langkah kita menuju ke arah kebaikan itu. Sebagaimana firman Allah 'Dan orang yang berusaha dengan bersungguh-sungguh kerana memenuhi kehendak Kami, sesungguhnya Kami pimpin mereka ke jalan-jalan Kami (yang menjadikan mereka gembira dan beroleh keredhaan) dan sesungguhnya (pertolongan dan bantuan) Allah berserta orang yang berusaha memperbaiki amalannya,'.
Sememangnya susah untuk melakukan sesuatu yang baik, sebab itu perlunya istiqamah,"

YOU WILL FALL.. JUST GET BACK UP.. AND YOU WILL FALL AGAIN.. GET BACK UP AGAIN..
STAY STRONG.. STAY HOPEFUL..

*reminding myself and whoever choose to be reminded