judge, judging, judgement

this post is not about judgement day.. (in case anybody is wondering)

not so recently i watched this video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eXzUuKdfnRE

one of the lady said: i would like u to judge me based on who i am, and what i do, not on the way i look.

so hijab has become a method to free themselves from physical judgement. they feel FREE, LIBERATED.

but unfortunately that does not happen in malaysia

girls are judged by their hijab.

nmpk je budak tudung labuh, kite ckp baik

klu tudung takat bawal 45, kite ckp biase je.

pki je tdg.. perangai taik..

tk pakai.. well u get my point

so hijab is not as liberating here in malaysia as it is in north america, or europe. it seems so demanding.

still, it is not an excuse not to wear them, or not to wear them properly.

for the public: this 'judging based on hijab size' activities has to stop.

for the girls: pakai la btul2.. kn bnde tu allah ske.. sume org pn ske..

in a nutshell: dont keep urself bz screaming at people.
if ure 'the girls', say this 2 urselves: i am wrong, no wonder they're mad
if ure 'the public' say this 2 urselves: i should stop judging, no wonder they dont want to wear it.

islam should liberates all of us. so let it.

appreciation

assalamualaikum

we are all different..
thus we appreciate different things
some might say linkin park is rubbish..
some might say they are inspirational..
its what we all call subjective matter..
and all over the world we listen to people say about embracing the difference..

but do we?
do we really embracing it?

maybe this can ring some bell in those thick skull of ours:
the topic of religious related culture..
blurry?
try these:

how many times we simply label people as 'tkde adab' when that people say things that against our understanding

how many times we force people to look at a certain things the way we do just because
we are on the right side ie the religious side
eg: the topic of aurat

how many times we say someone as 'aqidah tk kuat' when that individual ask questions that u dont dare to ask (or maybe we just not smart enough to think about it)

for u who read this post might think i have something against this religious side, no i dont.

all im trying to say is,even if what u're saying is the absolute truth, it does not give u the right to say it to their face and hurting them.
unless all u care is delivering the facts.

facts need to be delivered, i understand that.
but facts is not some DHL parcel that u have to deliver as soon as possible.

my suggestion is, understand that person first. do not say anything from ur side until u really understand them. then make them think. let them ask, only then u deliver the facts.
if they dont ask. it just not the time yet.

they may not ask u again. but if they care enough about it, they will look for the answer elsewhere.

it takes time. it is painfully slow. thats why Allah really love those who are patience i guess (trying to be one)

assalamualaikum

when the wing stalls

u learned: life is a test.. it will be hard.. all that good stuff

u dig it through that thick skull of yours..
understand it.. believe it..

u developed tis sort of confidence that u will never be sad again..

really?

unfortunately knowing this does not break your fall..

it does not change the value of G ie 9.81 m/s^2

you will still attain the terminal velocity if you're high enough..

i guess it really is a test

conclusion: make your own

questions?

some of us ask ourselves, some dont..
but how many of us ask twice?
or how many question the motive of: why we search for the answer in the first place?

confused? sorry.. let me try to untangle some..

we do something,anything for that matter
those who ask will ask themselves: why did i do that
we try and try to justify our doings.

but how many of us ask twice?
how many of us ask why we justify our doings?
to feel safe maybe?
to feel right?

we try time and time to explain our doings..
again i ask: why is that?
coz t does not actually feel right?
are we actually trying to trick our heart with our brains?
perhaps..

now, if u decide that we are tricking our hearts to accept your actions..
what's next?
is it wrong to trick our hearts?

God ask us to check back, i know.
God ask us to judge our day.
but here we are, telling ourselves that we did good.
perhaps to get a better sleep.

but is it parallel with the purpose of muhasabah?

decide for yourself
not trying to bring any guilt
simply writing down my thoughts..

percaya vs mempercayakan diri

dgr cite ni mase tazkirah lps maghrib 31/10/10
credit: ustaz zulfadhli (maaf ustz klu salah eja)

wakil dari 10 negara mengambil bahagian dalam satu pertandingan
pertandingannya berbentuk: menyeberangi satu air terjun yang tinggi dengan berjalan di atas seutas tali.
no safety net*

ditakdirkan 9 peserta pertama jatuh dan mati.
tiba giliran peserta terakhir.
beliau berjaya melepasi air terjun tersebut, tapi tiada seorang pun yang bersorak meraikan kejayaannya.
kehairanan, dia pun bertanya "mengapa kamu tidak bersorak meraikan kejayaanku?"
"kamu hanya bernasib baik", balas penonton.
"jika aku melakukannya sekali lagi, adakah kamu akan percaya pada kebolehanku?" tanya si penyeberang
"ya" balas penonton.

maka diseberanginya air terjun itu sekali lagi, dan bersoraklah semua penonton.
"percayakah kamu semua dengan kebolehanku?" tanya beliau.
"ya!!!" teriak penonton.

kemudian peserta tersebut menanyakan kepada penonton sesiapa yang sukarela didokong oleh peserta itu untuk menyeberangi air terjun tersebut.
*senyap*

peserta it bertanya,"bukankah kamu semua berkata kamu percaya dengan kebolehanku?"
*masih senyap*

kemudian bersuara seorg budak "saya!!!!!"

lalu dia pun didokongi peserta itu ke seberang air terjun.

sejurus selepas diturunkan, ramai yang bertanya kepada budak itu mengapa dia sanggup didokong sedangkan orang lain mendiamkan diri.

adik itu menjawab,"saya mempercayakan diri saya kepada jagoh itu"

p/s: betapa ramai kita pada hari ini percaya pada Allah tetapi tidak lagi mempercayakan diri padaNya. reminder for the bloke typing this, n whoever wants to be reminded

clash of the titans: part 2

bad feeling vs good thought.. again..
epic battle..

collateral damage: the soul i.e: very disturbed

idealistically depressing..

just finish reading a friend's blog when i'm writing this..
(not the entire blog mind u)

read a few posts..
the theme of those posts were: the dream guy. or it's how i saw it al least (appologise to the writer if i saw it not the way it should)

after reading those posts, say to myself: is that what they really hope in a man? its just way, way too ambitious.. well for obvious reasons..

milliseconds after that thought, i do not know how many million neurons worked to come up with the next thought: u're just scared, coz u r a long way from those men in the posts, aren't u?

honest answer: i am scared..

but not bcoz i'm not like those men, instead is bcoz i hate to disappoint..
* if that the kind of men they want, im not able to match it. thus, shattering a dream.

another cynical thought: u wont b able to match it or just simply dont want to?

this one, is a very hard question..

the real question that needs to be asked: am i using the term 'idealistic' as an excuse not to change myself?

not quite sure yet.

let me turn the table for once: how many time we use a term as an excuse?
ask real hard.