jangan sengaja butakan mata

"ko pehal?? mcm tkde org lain ko nk tego!! aku gk kene.."

"sume pn pki cmni ape.."

ni la reply2 standard, blom tune lagi, yg korg akn dpt klu try nk betulkn org lain..
ni pn blom msk lg reply2 klu org yg ko tgo tu tau psl zmn jahiliah ko..
jenuh2~~

yg aku pelik tu.. tau bnde tu slh.. ok fine yg bg kemampuan nk tgglkn of course Allah yg maha satu.. tp Allah suro kite usehe.. tk tau la korg nye pendapat.. tp klu ko tgh couple, ko still pgg tgn.. tu usehe ke?? blom pn suro break lagi..

ni giliran reply yg kedue tu plk..
sdgkn dr nabi adam, sampai manusie terakhir pn Allah bole kumpulkn kt padang masyar tu.. ape ko pikir Allah tk mampu nk sumbat sume masuk nerake??

ko ckp mcm nerake bole penuh je.. "sume pki cmni" ko ckp cmtu mase allah tanye..
ni bkn SPM la graf bole turun..

aku tk sangkal yg hidayah tu milik mutlak Allah..
hati kite pn Die yg pegang..

tp hidayah tu kne mintak..
bab ni aku sure sume bwt.. bab doa2 ni sume tip top

tp bile org tgo tu bkn hidayah??
yg tu gi tolak knp?? ko dh mintk pastu tolak.. pekil2 je..

fine, aku tgo care salah.. tu salah aku.. salah ko plk?
tu pn kne fikir gk.. tp ko ckp plk "slh aku ak tau la"

tau pulak.. haih~~

tau tp tk usehe menjauhi..

aku ckp USEHE.. bkn TGGLKN..

aku fhm rmi bwt.. aku tau ssh nk tgglkn.. tp still kne USEHE.. sbb hidup ni pn bkn milik kite..

HARD WORK!!!!!

i aint holding back this time

i'm angry, frustrated, and all the negative feeling u can think of.

to be honest.. i'm happy when my friends' relationship went wrong.
wanna know y? coz for an extended period they will stop doing all those lovey dovey stuff, thus stop putting in deposit in their sin account..

i'm also happy when they said they had enough of it and won't be doing it anymore due to the frustration: the only time i actually appreciate frustration. ironic.

but unfortunately, all those buggers get back to it in a few months time. their happy. for sure they r. but hell i'm not. look at what u just said!! 'had enough' soooo f***ing true man. -i said i aint holding back

y is it so so damn hard to hold on to ur own words man.. u said u're trying.. i aint seeing any results. i aint listening to the 'u dont know everything' excuse anymore.
u said it aint fair, but i dint ask u to become 'aishah' overnight!!
what i expect to see is constant improvement, i understand there will be slip up.

but u r asking me to tolerate the same slip up, the one that i've talk to u about, n u promised me to work on it. but nothing seems to chance!! what the hell?!!

what is wrong with u?!!
what does u want?!!

what i wanna do is give up on u.
coz u doesnt seem to need me around.. what i said doesnt change u.

i talked to u about those picture..
u said thats old.. i accepted it..
then ur new ones still a brows raiser..
dont u listen??!!

tell me which parents wont raise their brows seeing that???
yours??
his??
hers??

i can 'really' comprehend that the attention u get and the approval from the comments is far, far more important than ur promise.. sure does..

i had enough with u.. u frustrates me..

p/s: but it wont be fair to give up. thus conflicting emotions inside me