i aint holding back this time

i'm angry, frustrated, and all the negative feeling u can think of.

to be honest.. i'm happy when my friends' relationship went wrong.
wanna know y? coz for an extended period they will stop doing all those lovey dovey stuff, thus stop putting in deposit in their sin account..

i'm also happy when they said they had enough of it and won't be doing it anymore due to the frustration: the only time i actually appreciate frustration. ironic.

but unfortunately, all those buggers get back to it in a few months time. their happy. for sure they r. but hell i'm not. look at what u just said!! 'had enough' soooo f***ing true man. -i said i aint holding back

y is it so so damn hard to hold on to ur own words man.. u said u're trying.. i aint seeing any results. i aint listening to the 'u dont know everything' excuse anymore.
u said it aint fair, but i dint ask u to become 'aishah' overnight!!
what i expect to see is constant improvement, i understand there will be slip up.

but u r asking me to tolerate the same slip up, the one that i've talk to u about, n u promised me to work on it. but nothing seems to chance!! what the hell?!!

what is wrong with u?!!
what does u want?!!

what i wanna do is give up on u.
coz u doesnt seem to need me around.. what i said doesnt change u.

i talked to u about those picture..
u said thats old.. i accepted it..
then ur new ones still a brows raiser..
dont u listen??!!

tell me which parents wont raise their brows seeing that???
yours??
his??
hers??

i can 'really' comprehend that the attention u get and the approval from the comments is far, far more important than ur promise.. sure does..

i had enough with u.. u frustrates me..

p/s: but it wont be fair to give up. thus conflicting emotions inside me